a fresh

things changed

2010-08-26T09:04:00.002+08:00

To move on in life,
we forget the past.
That's what i did.

it was difficult.
but things were much better.

i won't deny that i still love you.
But look.
aren't you happy?
I'am.

don't get me wrong.
it's not all about clubs nor friends.
but its just the things i WANTED TO DO.
you hold me back.

dear,
you got to love me
JUST THE WAY I AM.

i'll bring the happy moments with me.
i'll learn from the violence you threw at me.
i'll treasure the love YOU ONCE GAVE.

2010-07-27T21:04:00.002+08:00

i remember years ago,
somebody told me i should take
caution when it comes to love.
I DID.

and you were strong and i was not
my illusion, my mistake.
i was careless, i forgot.
I DID.

and now when all is done
there is nothing to say
you were gone effortlessly
you have won
you could go ahead tell them

tell them all i know now
shout it from the roof top
write it on the sky line
all we had is gone now

tell them i was happy
and my heart is broken
all my scars are open
tell them what i hope would be
IMPOSSIBLE.

falling out of love is hard
falling for betrayal is worst
broken trust, broken heart
I KNOW.

thinking all you need is there
building faith on love and trusts
empty promises will wear.
I KNOW.

-IMPOSSIBLE, SHONTELLE

the song

2010-07-13T13:59:00.002+08:00

i found a way to let you in.
But i really never had a doubt.
Standing in the light of your halo
i got my angel now.

it's like i've been awaken
every rule i have been breaking.
it's the risk im taking.
I AIN'T NEVER GONNA SHUT YOU OUT.

everywhere im looking now
i'm surrounded by your embrace.
baby i can see your halo.
you're my saving grace.

2010-07-11T11:15:00.003+08:00

when i tot my fairytales were coming to life.

it just have to end in silence.

when i tot i was forgeting about the past.

it just ended in silence.

when i was starting to love u deeper.

it just ended in silence.

nothing.

not a single GOOD BYE was said.

was it the replied?

was it my attitude?

was it my anger?

was it my patience?

was it me?

you leave me in wonders.

u seriuxly did.

where i tot the light was coming,

where i tot the storms were moving.

where i tot it was time to call US, WE n no more YOU, ME.

it ended in cold silence.

first i gave him away.

it took me three years to move on and accept the fact that he moved on.

but you were there to help me cope.

& now its you?

the one who have help me cope everything.

the one that im left with?

I HATE YOU FOR BREAKING MY HEART ONCE AGAIN!

I HATE YOU!

i do.

the storms are coming.

the rain is falling.

TWEET TWEET

2010-07-04T16:52:00.003+08:00

Have been real busy with I HAVE NO IDEA WAD.

ok thats a lie.

i hv been so tired lately.
~~sleeping~~ most of the time.

i totally feel i lost LOTS OF WEIGHT!

just update urself with my tweeter.

www.twitter.com/iqahrul

luv all of u!
missing everybody!
and ofcox hating some of u!
ENJOY!

work

2010-06-10T18:14:00.000+08:00

just cudn't have the time to update!
tired!
work!
i miss my bby loves.

2010-05-16T18:12:00.001+08:00

cud i have this for my birthday??

When I see something I like, I gotta... I love it. -NOAH from THE NOTEBOOK.

both are from vivo diamonds!!
isn't it beautiful??

2010-05-14T21:31:00.001+08:00

huh?
you're talking rubbish now.

vote vote vote

2010-05-14T19:16:00.002+08:00

Vote for me in this contest on Photobucket! -

CLICK HERE!

jobless

2010-05-14T18:50:00.002+08:00

i swear i hate it when ppl say
"im jobless"

so in dat sense you trying to say you want to work or you dun want to work?

ANYBODY WANT A PART TIME JOB?
with PARENTS APPROVAL?

retails VS nursing
which stands longer?
ahhhhh...
retail. 5 hrs of standing.
nursing. 10hrs of standing and attending to pt's need.

i swear im not lying.
i hv been standing 10hrs.
waking up at 7 and reaching hume as late as 7:30pm.
kalah kerje security oiii!!!

TERASE?
agus.
=)

nak keje ckp. tknk keje diam.
THANKS.
much love iqah mulot sial... if u want to put it that way.

2010-05-11T21:25:00.004+08:00

1. Watch the sunset together.

(checked)

2. Whisper to each other.

(checked)

3. Cook for each other.

(half checked. he didn't do it. sobs)

4. Walk in the rain.

(checked)

5. Hold hands

(always checked)

6. Buy gifts for each other.

(on occasion)

7. Roses.

(checked)

8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear it every time you're together.

(not checked.)

9. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight.

(checked)

10. Write poetry for each other.

(tot of it b4. but i just cudn't rhyme it all.)

11. Hugs are the universal medicine.

(always checked on this!)

12. Say I love you, only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it.

(FOR SURE!)

13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc.

(IM ALWAYS WELL KNOWN FOR RANDOM THINGS....)

14. Tell her that she's the only girl you ever want. Don't lie!

(hmmmm.....)

15. Spend every second possible together.

(tried. filed. succeed.)

16. Look into each other's eyes.

(admire. only look away when he is angry.)

17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you love her, and kiss her lightly.

(pernah ke pa? hahahahh.)

18. When in public, only flirt with each other.

(checked. but we flirt to others oso... kan pa?)

19. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren't looking.

(*kening up up*)

20. Buy her a ring.

(lost it. throw it.)

21. Sing to each other.

(every single day! xcept for his outfield.)

22. Always hold her around her hips/sides.

(no. sumtimes only. how?)

23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two deal.

(we are always by two.)

24. Spaghetti? (Ever see Lady and the Tramp?)

(spaghetti no. but fries YESH!!! && it so adorable. even though he bite my lips! )

25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it over your heart.

(after that day onwards....)

26. Dance together.

(LOVING IT!)

27. I love the way a girl looks right after she's fallen asleep with her head in my lap.

(HE LOVES IT ALOT. n i wud cover my face.)

28. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have to look in a mirror to read it.

(message bleh? note tk pernah try.)

29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes

(fights? or romantic? anw CHECKED!)

30. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to call and say I love you.

(tried. & checked!)

31. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them.

(done-ed!)

32. Remember your dreams and tell her about them.

(if we could recall what the dream was.)

34. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears.

(shhhhhhhh......)

35. Be Prince Charming to her parents.

(FAILURE! but u are prince charming to me! :) )

36. Brush her hair out of her face for her.

(always.)

37. Hang out with his/her friends.

(some of the days when my fwen bf wans to....)

38. Go to church/pray/worship together.

(hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..........................)

39. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked.

(LOVING IT!)

40. Learn from each other and don't make the same mistake twice.

(does make thousand mistake n learn from it counts? )

41. Describe the joy you feel just to be with him/her.

(hell yah!)

42. Make sacrifices for each other.

(only gawds know!)

43. Really love each other, or don't stay together.

(checked!)

44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren't thinking about them, and make sure they know it.

(done-ed)

45. Love yourself before you love anyone else.

(checked checked checked.)

46. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages.

(he gets irritated. cox i dun noe how to pronounce properly.)

47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio.

(98.7fm wunt pick up our calls!)

48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other.

(always doing that!!)

49. Stand up for them when someone talks trash.

(TELL ME BOUT IT.)

50. Never forget the kiss goodnight and always remember to say, "Sweet dreams."

(DONE IT SO MANY TIMES!!!)

A day full of tears.

2010-05-09T16:05:00.002+08:00

We as kids/children/daughter/son

may have not understand how it felt to be a mom.

Never will we understand sacrifices.

Never know how much pain to go tru labor.

UNTIL WE EXPERIENCED IT OUR SELF.

a text to mom.

Dear ibu hu rock my arse.
Happy mother's day.. thank you for always being dere for me. thank you for not giving up any hope on me.
eventhough i bring shame, eventhough i laft a big scar in ur heart. BUT u nv fail to be by my side. im sorie i put a hard time on u. But u have to noe, dat i du love u so much.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY.
malam party kape?! hahahahaha.

&&her reply.
thank q so much. there is no words 2 describe how hapi i m wen u sucezful complete ur study... i cry wen u accpet ur cert n dat show i hv done my duty s a mum 2 u. a scar hv been erase once u hv make me proud of u on dat dae. wel itz a long journey n hope u learn frm a mistake n letz put d past behind us. do approach me if u hv any problem.. n remember if ibu marah doesn't mean i do not luv u cox i will nvr stop luvinf u wanie n amir. luv u.

&&ofcox i dunwan her to cry so i reply.
i noe u luv me more..
malam ini bagus punya!! ahhaha.

To end my post,
to all mothers
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY.

SOMETHING TO NOTE

2010-05-08T21:42:00.002+08:00

ARUL CHOOSE ALL THE THINGS WE BOUGHT TODAY.

boyfriend uroh letak nie... hahahaaa

TAMPINES MALL

2010-05-08T18:56:00.008+08:00

we met.

we hugged.
we kissed.
we argued.

he's out.
he's in already.

a quick shopping was done.
4 hours for 5 items.
(orng yng gaji tak beli pape.)

to find the JR.stuff was a'lil troublesome.it was our first time buying things for him.
after 3 yrs.

1st- i and arul have different taste.
i wud like JR.to wear something cute.
while he like something smart.
2nd- we don't noe his xact size.
3rd- some shop doen't hv his size.
4th- arul doesn't like crowds.
5th- he hate shopping with me.

went to CROCS straight.
so happy n xcited.
and pick the pump shoe and ASKED FOR MY SIZE.
s.a "can i know the shoe size that you are holding?"
me "size 7."
s.a "sorry mam. that's the smallest size."
me *sigh*"thanks anw."

it was so effing disappointing.
for the first time i went to a shop there wasn't my size!
so walk around T.mall.
found the shoe.
pay.
Next stop.....
JR.stuff.
we bought shirt and jeans at CERISI.
and his shoe at ROYAL SPORTING HOUSE.
den we head to by my undergarments.
and head home.

THANKS FOR THE TREAT BOYFRIEND.

p.s; i just dun understand why some people just have to update what they bought by ending it with THE COST OF THE ITEM(s).
nk tunjok yng korng mampu isit?
iskh.
for all i know being HUMBLE is good.
;)

PICTURES FROM GRAD TO SHOPPING.

GRADS PHOTO CAN BE FOUND AT FACEBOOK.
obviously other's. i dun owe a facebook.

cepat laaa... lapar nie!!

i dun noe which child of her's is in engineering.

mcm girl-girl. hehhx.

JR.stuff below onwards.

2010-05-08T00:39:00.002+08:00

damn funny.

damn sad.

damn good.

EVENTHOUGH ITS NOT POPULAR.

have been working straight 5 daes 8-6.

my body is adjusting to changes.

big day had arrived.

both annie and grad on same dae!

bf booked out already.

loving everyone alot!

work

2010-05-03T07:14:00.002+08:00

aft two months of rotting at home.

IM FINALLY STARTING MY WORK TODAY.

fuck. im late alrd.
bye!! nak mandi!

date

2010-04-30T15:25:00.003+08:00

mcm sexy gitu iron man ehk?

will be going out in a while.
but i hvn't bath yet. HAHAHHA.

watching iron man 2.
and buy work shoe.

ANOTHER

2010-04-29T22:38:00.003+08:00

"This is Tyler. Nothing more. Nothing less."

brad pitt is super hawt!

another movie watched.
dead bored.

i think the first time i watched this show was at ZANNA'S chalet.

Welcome to Fight Club. The first rule of Fight Club is: you do not talk about Fight Club. The second rule of Fight Club is: you DO NOT talk about Fight Club! Third rule of Fight Club: if someone yells "stop!", goes limp, or taps out, the fight is over. Fourth rule: only two guys to a fight. Fifth rule: one fight at a time, fellas. Sixth rule: the fights are bare knuckle. No shirt, no shoes, no weapons. Seventh rule: fights will go on as long as they have to. And the eighth and final rule: if this is your first time at Fight Club, you have to fight.

the last song is alrd on air!
~~but not clear ofcox.~~

The Notebook.

2010-04-25T03:31:00.002+08:00

A two thumbs up story.
expected ending.
but well its still good story.
Rachel Mcadams was good.
Ryan Gosling is damn natural.

what happen when summer loves become serious.

THEY GOT MARRIED!
durh.

2010-04-24T13:42:00.002+08:00

I don't miss him,
I miss who I thought he was.

smile baby n the w0rld will smile wit u..

I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy.
I’m going to laugh,so you don’t see me cry,
I’m going to let you go in style,and even if it kills me
- I’m going to smile.

2010-04-24T13:12:00.002+08:00

QUIZ

you came back from a week holiday. & your parents fetch u. who do u meet FIRST aft u reach home?

a.your friends.
b.your girlfriend.
c.your scandal.
d.all of the above at the same time.

THE ANSWER IS

A. YOUR GOD DAMN FRIENDS.
=)

2010-04-23T02:46:00.002+08:00

im done with my blogskin.
after HOURS ON IT.

and ofcox im being so random i texted arul this.

hie,i noe u r sleeping now. so i dont want to disturb u but d "VIBRATION" from ur phone is my sweet kiss. i will give it again. just call me when u wake up. ♥

anw readers, im sleepy.
good night.
have a good morning to all.

2010-04-22T21:51:00.002+08:00

have you ever felt so down after you waited so long for his call?

you were so looking forward to tell him how your day was.
&& at the of your story you realize you were talking to urself.

i felt that way.
just now.
he doze of in the middle of my story.

i cried.
and told him that i was really sad.
cox i was looking forward to share but in the end he was asleep.
i totally understand his situation.
he is tired.
but don't show interest from the starting.

i hate u for making me look forward to each of your call.

a new day

2010-04-22T12:26:00.001+08:00

well GOOD AFTERNOON everybody.

so the boyfriend called yesterday night.
and my high fever subside.

nothing can be more perfect.

other than mom saying
"kalo mak bpk arul nak dtg minang cakap ngan dorng 5 BINTANG MARI."
which means my hantaran will be 20K.
n arul respond when i say that to him was
"MAK OI! aku nak khawin ngan permaisuri per?"

so lets skip that topic.

arul was offered. i meant CHOSEN. for NDP.
basically most of our weekends are wasted.
its ok.
PATIENCE.
=)

anw waiting for farah to call me back.
having lunch together.
RINDU KAU LAH.

sorry for not calling u two days straight.
i was really to weak to move.

CALL ME BACK SOON.

old, but new.

2010-04-20T18:30:00.006+08:00

The Boys who NEVER fail to be by my side during my secondary school.
AN, IMAN, ASYRAFF ALAUDDIN n ofcox my MALE bestfriend SHAFIQ.
n that small kid is NABEEL!
mcm cine kan!

anw shafiq
thanks for being there from morning to night.
and sorry for not accompanying u when u breakfast during ur visit.
thanks for always being there.
:)

FARAH LOOK AT THE WINDOW.
now u believe me?
hahahha.

SEC 5 GRAD.

BUKE PUASE.
when at that moment i never even fast.
bonkers.

2010-04-16T12:26:00.005+08:00

~~ZIRCA~~

ZOUK.

HELL of a night.

sick.

muker buruk. jgn tegoh.

reminder

2010-04-09T16:37:00.000+08:00

lets have WAR TODAY. and be HAPPY tomorrow.

forgot.

2010-04-09T13:54:00.002+08:00

no... i wasn't screaming....
:)
aku yang happy giler.
jgn tanye asl.

P.O.P

2010-04-09T13:11:00.005+08:00

SO CAB DOWN TO MAJU CAMP.
reached around 5.45...
the event already started.

find ourselves a good place to sit.

and official event started.

kusyuk tau dorng...

where is arul??
*eye scanning.*

itu dier!!
so small.. hehhx.

dream on if this is arul...

the rain started to pour heavily.
:(

*eye scan*
where are you md sahrul?!
giving me the nerve already.

&& hamim spot him!
even the mother and girlfriend couldn't spot him.
third row

told u it was raining heavily.

private in the first row helmet senget nmpk...

spartan charlie company.
not full squad.
:(

look how our generation is.
so SHORT!
mcm Sergent dier cikgu abei tu semue anak murid.
hehhx.

anak mak...
i told you.
he is the first son, yet he is the manje one.
-____-*

boyfriend side.
*along missing.*

awwwwww so sweet.
subahan!! TEMBAM NYER AKU!

P.O.P laaaa seiiii.

angkat buah mau lebih....

the casual.
i assume.

yes. dere was a reminder of how hot the weather is.
-________-*

tu kalau kene tumbok ngan tangan kau tu...... biol aku...

already so exhausted + hungry.
mcm aku yng p.o.p.....

TOMOLO PARTY!!
WOWOOTS.
prolly ila coming aft work.

2010-04-08T11:47:00.009+08:00

yesterday got my phune back.
farah accompanied me.
pass her camera.

and off to meet wanie and sabri.
i really feel bad for not sending sister off.
so i fetch her from the airport.
obviously i was late!
SUPER LATE!
they were already at the taxi stand waiting for me.
than we had our dinner.
off to print pictures.

the house is back to normal.

THE BATTLE OF THE SEXES!!
from this stoopid 'I' shape thing to a wonderful lantern.
tak caye ngok lah.

ni lantern kecik2 tak menjdik lah.

so wanie dismantle everything and re-do.

AND HERE YOU GO!!!

SELF MADE LANTERN.
done by wanie.

few hours to go!!!

alive

2010-04-07T15:26:00.002+08:00

phone is alive.
and ready to be collected.

gg with farah.

then later at 5:15
fetching wanie at airport!
i swear i miss her.
but it will be another annoying days with her around!

bonkers.

&&

i cunt eat anymore chili!!!
especiallie chili padi!

my stomach hurts...
and its so angry now...
bohooo tummy.
:(

4.3.52

2010-04-06T15:30:00.003+08:00

yesh. i was being random.
you all can imagine the whole scenario will be like.

anw md sahrul.
i do STILL love you.
and will always do.
eventhough we went tru so much downturns rather than upturns.
i still love u the most.

~~we manage~~....
i mean YOU manage to get hold of this relationship when i was really at verge of stopping everything..

you ~~MAY~~ have hurt me, but you manage to mend this broken heart.
you ~~MAY~~ abandon me bck den, but you manage to stand by my side now.
you ~~MAY~~ have soooo many scandals, BUT I STILL DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU STILL PICK ME!!!!!

hahahahhaha.

all annie post have been so touching and emo.
so i made this one a random post.
a happy one indeed!

DAH 52 BULAN LAAAA SEII....

DEAD!

2010-04-05T14:40:00.007+08:00

when kecik got tired of watching t.v.

THE PHONE WENT DEAD!!! it kept on switching OFF n ON by itself!!!! but it wont go to THE HOME PAGE!!

FUCK YOU!!!

LEFT OVER PHOTOS.

FINALLY HE GET TO SEE THE WORLD. AGAIN.
yes, we manage to put him inside the car.

"u dah dpt makan u nye kangkong kan... jgn mintak2 i agie."-arul...
-_____________-*

4 days

2010-04-04T20:40:00.007+08:00

Bby book out on 1april'10.
well spend my nights with bout friends,love n family.
4 more days to ARUL'S P.O.P!

ZIRCA on 10APRIL'10.
anyone wanna join?like finally...

Thursday spend @ bby's crib. ofcox i doze off dere. VERY COZY LAH THE ENVIRONMENT.
Friday spend @ HAPPY meal. telepark. rooftop(tamp one.)
Saturday spend @ AMK hospital/j.b with family.
Sunday(today) spend @ umah obok man. kak yan's engagement day.

~~BLOGGER IS BEING A BITCH~~!!!!
update photo next entry. ciows!

Lily's

2010-04-04T20:29:00.002+08:00

a mth

2010-04-02T17:48:00.002+08:00

this is boring...
i have been jobless for a mth.
an so for another mth.

i will official start work as a nurse on 3may.
so i was being so stress that pay will onlie come on JUNE!

so arul goes saying

"you are my responsibilities. so u go and relax."

so sweet....
:)

currently watching FIGHT CLUB.
old time fav.
toodles.

plans dada?

new

2010-03-31T14:02:00.002+08:00

dad just installed in SCV.
and currently watching FOXCRIME.
C.S.I freak!!

for the next one month i will be rotting at home watching t.v and movies online.
a psycho indeed.

bby, i hate u.
its going to be 7 mths and im still not heal.
plx bear with me.

blogskin

2010-03-30T02:30:00.001+08:00

something new.
something is loved.

annoying

2010-03-30T00:38:00.000+08:00

the ~~idiot~~ boy just called.
-0102am

valentine's day

2010-03-29T16:14:00.002+08:00

got so bored.
the boi havnt called yet.
still shooting or prob marching.
so i google which clubs that have event on 10april'10.
and got so bored over it google for online movies.
and decided today picks is
VALENTINE'S DAY.
ofcox i have watch this @ the movie.
but just loving it so much.

tomolo i shall watch REMEMBER ME.

two daes after im going to watch DEAR JOHN.

eyyy JANGAN...

2010-03-28T16:46:00.002+08:00

pay day in.
out with farah and two idiots.

the night where something that didnt plan.
(jgn tipu....)

morning went to uniform fitting with farah.
got home. rest.
meet farah at night to pass her ciggs.
than BBY BOOK OUT!!
he ask to wait for him with them.

there the night we went for our unplanned planssss...

two nights and a morning that will never forgotten.

SEKALI LAGI KAPE JAKCO??

eyyyy.... jjjjaaaannnnggggaaaannnnn....

*puuurrrrrr*

too much

2010-03-25T22:55:00.001+08:00

even if im hearing voices,
its still wonderful to hear your voice yesterday night.

2010-03-25T21:38:00.009+08:00

i'm lazy to update.

pictures are about

family gathering at umah CIK JAI
massage with illa.
lepak day at umah nenek. (i think.)
pit.
the book out before arul go utan!
visit atok.

"WAH!! cantek nye mama..."-nana say it with penoh semangat.

part of illa d.i.y card.

otw to ANG MO KIO COMMUNITY HOSPITAL.

dun drink too much liquor. you look HORRIBLE in PUBLIC.

NANA'S birthday?

or IMAN?

or EVERYONE?

nabeel uker amek gambar kabinet ehk??

jgn main2 kae... E63 leh capture rain kae...

guess dad is BUS-SICK.

had dinner after ramp down the old cabinet...

skrng uker amek gambar kaki lah pulak.

kaki pon kaki lah budak kecik.

he wants to let the whole world noe that he is wacthing disney channel.

camera kat sini bukan kat saner oiiii....

"poke nose.. poke nose.."-nabeel.

BOLEH CEPAT BALIK TAK?!?!?!?!

when they fight.
just kidding.

cute as always...

good bye STRAIGHT HAIR and hello to CURL HAIR!

WE NEED SOME RELAXATION FROM THE WHOLE WORLD.
thanks uncle for ur energy.

another weekend

2010-03-21T12:42:00.002+08:00

so illa's birthday present is halfway done already.
pictures need to be print.
will continue at night.

so got dress at around 12.
was wearing a purple top and a black jeans.

so ask my dad.
"do i look like a ~~MINAH~~?"
and he scan from head to toes.
"nie macam adeq nmpk mcm MINAH REMPIT."
and i end it with
"di mana ada kemahuan, di situ ada highway."

then i walk to mom and ask her the same question.
and she say
"you always look LIKE A ~~MINAH~~."

ouh well, i tried my veri best to run from the category ~~MINAH~~, but it will always stuck to my face. a ~~MINAH~~ will always be a ~~MINAH~~.

well, was throwing rubbish the other day.
came across this cute kids walking pass-by me.

then one of them say this.
"WOW! cangih per awak ader handphone niie. kaye nye awak."
and the girl replied.
"aper lah awak nie. kiter tak keje, mana ader kaye. bpk saye yang kaye. dier yang belikn."

touch ur heart now. will u reply the same thing?
i noe i won't if my parents to buy things for me.
"EH MESTI LAH JACK."
sappp. kaye teros...

but ofcox im a proud owner of my phone and my laptop.
MY OWN CASH.
so im going to curl my hair with MY CASH.

the next time i would invite my fwen to come over to MY PARENTS house i would say something like this,
"oi. nak dtng umah MAK BPK aku tak? chill jap aru kiter kua."

anw i have to get myself ready.
nid to go umah cik jai for a family gathering.

OI MD SAHRUL!!! KAU TAK PAHAM2 KER NAK ALEK URH?!!?!
KAT UTAN TU ADER APER?!!?!? TAK DER PAPE!!! CEPAT ALEK BOLEH TAK!??!?!
AKU RINDU KAU GILER BABI BODOH!!!!
hrmph.

another

2010-03-20T14:17:00.002+08:00

was finding ed hardy photo to make a cover..
since we all cunt afford or shud i say PAY is still not in.
so atleast a cover will make her happy.
so was browsing tru evry single photo.
and i came a cross this one.
and i like it so much.

"death is CERTAIN. life is NOT."

a week

2010-03-20T13:06:00.003+08:00

ofcox i had nothing better to do.
plus illa's birthday is just around the corner.
since i have nothing better to do (plus i havn't give illa anything since decades)
so i was searching for ideas to do scrap-card-frame for her.
got a lil idea from here and dere.
hope she like it.
:)

as you all can see that its saturday and im still at home because
LOVE IS AT JUNGLE.
"in the jungle,the mighty jungle, the lion sleep to nyte!"
and im really missing him very badly.
and i have been really good. i have stayed at home.
done all laundry. wash & iron.
sweep the house. mop with softlan (EXTREMLY SOFT!).
break my almari and place new almari.
bohoooo...
i bet he is having an extreme high fever & running nose.
cox rain + him = not a good combination.

AKU RINDU KAU LAH SIAL!!!
CEPAT ALEK BOLEH TAK PANTAT?!?!?!?!

scandal(s)

2010-03-12T19:03:00.004+08:00

school have finally ENDED!
i really thought that i won't even finish the course. (maybe having a mindset of being sponsored kept me staying.)
arul is still at Tekong. i guess, he is toughing himself up for FIELD CAMP.
i miss arul already. especially fighting with him.
briefing on 29 march. alot of things to get done.

So everybody, have already read today news paper.
"why drag your wife along?"
ouh come on, have you guys ever tot that ~~MAYBE~~, just ~~MAYBE~~, his wife was the one hu want to tag along. to give him a support.
let them be. Jack Neo is already at a downturn. thats why every ladies who "dated" him is pouring all the secrets out.

when he was a SUCCESSFUL person, do you ladies even want to say anything?
why now?
maybe he have hurt you.
but come on, you yourself know there isn't always a HAPPY ENDING for being a MISTRESS.
you jolly well know.

Just like Tiger Woods.
he was already at a downturn, and every details of the dirty secret affair came out.
and his marriage is DEAD.
he have hurt you, but this wasn't a nice revenge to play.
LET THEM BE.
every single human is not perfect.
god make us this way to LEARN.
and not to JUDGE.

on another hand, I THANK GOD MD SAHRUL IS NOT A SUPERSTAR. :)

i really got sick of reading ~~SEX-SCANDALS~~ stories.
which have been going on for days! which will be WEEKS!
why won't they put up something like
"FIREMEN SAVE SINGAPORE'S FOREST." "NURSES HAVE CHANGE PEOPLE PERCEPTIVE OF LIFE."

rather than putting all this.
EVERY SINGLE PERSON HAVE MORAL AND DIGNITY.
mind you.
enough said.
SUNGGUH TAKE PERLU EHK AKU... hahahah

anw update on my next week schedule.

Saturday= BBQ SHOPPING.
Saturday night= PARTY WITH BABY!! before that see atok together.
Sunday= rest. spend quality time.
Monday= PIT LAH SEII! bby out field camp! bohoooo.
Tuesday= stay home
Wednesday= see atok.
Thursday= stay home.
Friday= abish kan beras.
saturday= BABY BOOK OUT!!!

cramp

2010-03-11T16:39:00.002+08:00

Hell im so happy!!
farah know why.

anw, havnt seen atok for two daes already.
gg to hosp today to see him with illa and nana.

missing arul so much. eventhough this was the toughest week.
anw bby, im SORRY.

hp already been REBOOT! thanks to farah.
and everything is working PERFECTLY.

ciows. gg out nw.

beyond madness

2010-03-10T21:56:00.005+08:00

Take me away, a secret place.
A sweet escape, take me away.

Take me away, to better days.
Take me away, a hiding place.

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love and I know that it's all mine.

Today had a fund raising. we had to collect ATLEAST three cans each.
so collected more than expected.

anw u make me go till that extend cox u are the one hu couldnt TRUST ME.

UPDATE!

2010-03-09T21:15:00.004+08:00

DATES COULDN'T BE REMEMBERED.

wanie's wedding was held on 28/2/10. everything went well.
50 mth of annie was celebrated. & MORE SECRETS WERE POURED.
heard a bad news regarding the two fwens of mine. Fifie and arwah Adilah. tears. laughter. sadness. combined together. met some old spf & Jr.s....
shifted back to tamp. (house is still a mess due to wedding and shifting house.)
atok was admitted to hosp. due to left side stroke.
had our MINI FAREWELL PARTY AT WARD.
bloghop and bumped onto NANA CINE. most of u guys noe WHO. loving her phrase sooo much

"Behind every untrusting girl is a boy who made her that way"
baik kape geng.... :)

arul is soooooo going to FUME.
well, ofcox KAPOssss.... im still healing. and im not putting anyone at blame. & to be honest i do use some sarcasm at him.
like; "da pa.. tak pyh nak g dbl-o ke maner2 nak kutip pmpn. tmpt ni bynk untok kau nakknl2.."
"just remember this bby love AKU TAK SEKEJAM KAU."
sometimes i dun give a damn. mayb, like farah say, vengeance. prolly.

NOTES.

arwah adilah
hey bby girl. i wonder how u are doing now.
hope u are doing fine. i kinda miss debating with u.
u always have my prayers.

MASUDI(ATOK)
hey atok ku sayang..
i noe i was a failure. and i make u cried about three yrs back.
sorry to disappoint u so much.. u noe i never meant to break ur heart.
if only i cud go back to time, i wud spent every single time out with u.
especiallie during ur demented moment. instead of locking both of us inside the house. being so afraid that u might get lost along the way.
atok u tot me patience, kindness and most important thing love & appreciation.
i will cherish every moment we had.
u remember he was mine.
n i thank gawd u cherish him so much.
thankieuu for being so patience towards him eventhough he was a lil demanding.you hang in there.be strong.
kuat kan iman atok.
tell yourself that you can do it.
cox im still waiting to bring u to the mosque to pray.
the place u love to go and hide from us.
i shall keep this promise.
:)

SHARIFFAH FARAH
hey arse.
its been i dun noe how many yrs already but this last two yrs was a pleaseent yr to finally get close to u.
sorry for not being there for u. but i tried.
thankieuu for being patience with me.
thankieuu for being there for me for most of the time.
and i love u sooo much toooo.

MD SAHRUL
to the most irritating bf who never fails to make me love and hate him.
happie 50 mths of annie.
we had our laughters we had our tears together.
i wud say, dere was much of a downturn rather than upturn.
but we manage to overcome.
i manage to prove to u from a MINAH SAMPAH to a half-way well behaved women i become.
2009 was the worst yr with you.
to be honest i really wanted to end it all. but i said to myself
"this was a challenge god gave me. either i solve it or leave it."
i choose to stay and STILL stand strong beside u.
with no shame. and still saying U ARE STILL THE ONE.
cox daddy tot me one thing
"patience will always lead to success."
mayb Halloween happen for a reason.
i thank gawd u stop all dose bad habit.
forgive me if i was the one hu make u abuse it.
i saw u change. i really do. its just that i dun wan to put too much hope. cox u always SURPRISE ME.

i think that shud be it.

PICTURES!

back on track

2010-02-22T10:49:00.001+08:00

it just feel GOOD to back HOME AGAIN.

bonkers

2010-02-17T18:50:00.004+08:00

140210

He was forever late AGAIN.

we went to G.V to watch valentine day.

3.5 popcorns out of 5.

feelings were mixed in the movie.

cause I KNOW HOW IT FELT TO BE CHEATED AND LOVED AND CHEATING BEHIND ones back.

one moment i was crying the next i was laughing.

yesh i cried in the movie.

its an emotional ISSUE for me.

mind you.

than had some booze to booze the energy.

anw thanks rizal for booking the tix.

owe you.

paying you back with my nursing skills kae.

hahahah.

150210

everyone was home.

so had breakfast.

AND FINALLY WE SIT ONE TABLE TO HAVE BREAKFAST!

loving it...

M.O

2010-02-12T12:00:00.004+08:00

supposingly on morning shift today...

but md sahrul just have to spread the ~~love~~.

& yesh i have conjunctivitis.

not as bad as bby's..

doc wanted to give abt a week.

but i was like

"eyy i dun wan too long. ltr cialat. give me today m.c only. cox i got wkends and p.h. no nid so long."

and his replied was simple

"ok lah. but if wednesday still bad, u come again. i extend ur m.c"

so good ryte the doc. hahahha.

so next saturday have to work.

anw tomolo the aussies will be flying back to melbourne.

they making a fare-well party at school.

and ltr at nyte to the clubs.

i wish i cud go.

i noe bby ~~dis~~like it.

bonkers.

nice knowing you guys.

have a safe journey.

so ltr meeting marlina to get haziqah birthday present and wan's.. but everything have to be done verie fast. cox i HAVE to be at arul's house by 5. fetching hym prolly.

my ouh my. im missing hym already...

FARAH!!! AKU RINDU KAU. bodoh peh cikgu taknak letak samer shift. osi!

060206

2010-02-10T10:37:00.003+08:00

photos on our outing is random.

anw happie 4 years and a month bby.

still holding on...

he waited for about 45 mins.

and he didnt dare to scold me.

cox i waited much longer den him.

anw im still sorie love. hehhx.

im still ur princess ryte?

when he was mumbling something, i was camwhoring.

so i edit this next photo....

hehhx.

if im not wrong he was busy talking at

how gurls can walk and snap a photo at the same time.

and saying that we girls are seeking attention...

and while walking at town there were girls snaping photos but

nobody was looking at them

and dere i go saying

"ah dere!! where got ppl looking? so hu is seeking attention?"

so he goes making the WADEVER face.

hahah.

this middle photo was taken because he always say

"have it your way."

our couple seat.

FINALLY OI DPT NGOK.

swear not worth to wait.

it a ok-ok movie to me.

THIS SORE EYES RESULT TO....

WATCHING TO MUCH GIRLS.

doinks.

kidding love.

kidding.

when he took the phone away.

he cam-whore his body.

BACK TO BASIC BBY...

*wink*

i was waiting for time to pass.

i swear....

about to....

2010-02-07T22:00:00.005+08:00

on thursday (4.2.10)

this was the day bby make a suprise..

he totally came unexpected.

i literalie scold him for making me come down at 0000hrs!!

because i was asleep.

sorie bby.

loving you!

this was taken on last two weeks..

cudnt remember wen..

wanie was gg to another side. and i was gg to kkh for work.

this was also taken last two weeks. on thursday.

sabri and wanie paint their room.

so i tag along after my work.

left over photos.

this was taken last week.

my first day of attachedment at CGH.

and jay was admitted.

sepsis at his finger.

on monday (1.2.10)

first day of attachment. doinks.

this two photo was taken by daddykins.
he was testing my camera quality.

this was last three weeks i think.

i left hp to amir. cox he got no phune. and internet was doing fyne.

so he cam-whore with kecik.

anw next post will be on the outing to watch

"new york,i love you."

2010-02-06T17:18:00.002+08:00

a proper update soon...

going out with love anytime soon.

& i hvnt bath yet.

love ya'll..

updated

2010-01-16T20:34:00.013+08:00

ofcox i have been missing for a week or so.

well, i got so cought up with arul.

he was down with a high fever.

&& was send home on 7 Jan'10.

and all the way i was in the morning shift.

after work i rush over to his house.

most of the time i got so damn tired i fall asleep at his house.

DUE TO LACK OF SLEEP WE FOUGHT ALOT.

way to lot.

6 Jan'10

was on morning shift.

there wasnt much things to do. so walk around.

talk to patient and the staff there to pass the time.

there is a lot of crappy pictures due to the tiredness and sleepy mind.

8 Jan'10

bby was send home on 7 Jan'10.

6 days m.c..

yesh, dix is how burok he look when he sick.

he was SUPERBLY MANJE LAAAA.

and apologise for not being like all dose ladies out there.

"ouhhh i feed bby love."

"i sponge him."

"feed for him food."

-self proclaims by all the girls out there who post on the blog

im not like all dose girls.

apologise for that.

9 Jan'10

rush to umah nenek to print structure activities things.

get a few picture taken with budak kecik. and off to bby's house.

he said his fever was going down.

when i reach his fever shoot up real high.

get his medication.

and i end up falling asleep.

doinks.

12 Jan'10

meet bby after work. i mean every single day i have been meeting him.

work form 7-3.

then spent time with arul from 5-12.

so basicallie didnt have much of a rest.

he was reading the news paper.

cox i told him the news was interesting...

cunt remember exactly wad.

did my simulation traing ppr.

than head home!

i was early. 11:30 i reached home.

13 Jan'10

BACK TO SCHOOL.

the last!

was awesome!

took this bloodie picture with marlina.

meet our bfs at tamp.

marlina's bf accompany arul to extend his m.c.

so meet them at tamp.

BUT than he have to give his m.c to his work.

and the furnie thing isssssss....

BUANG MASE JEK AMEK M.C LAST2 KENE BOOK IN JUGAK.

if im not mistaken my wallet went missing.

but someone return to my cousin!

THANKEUU!!

14 Jan'10

sturcture activity done-ed!

WELL DONE KORNG!!

LOVE YOU!

my patient enjoy it alot.

after that we went giant.

ALOT OF THINGS HAPPEN.

rush here and dere.

fight here and dere.

doinks

15 Jan'10

THE FINAL DAY HAVE ARRIVE.

some of them get the things ready.

some waited outside.

and look at them.

they just look like one of them.

DOINKS.

missing all of them already.

16 Jan'10

woke up.

mom dad went to market and bought breakfast.

we three got ourself ready.

and off to tampines.

clean the house.

wipe here and dere.

move things here and dere.

alil touch up on the paint.

sabri came along in the afternoon.

after we are done.

we went to t.mart to makan.

den off to home!

2010-01-06T11:10:00.002+08:00

lips are sealed; the lies you gave.
heart are aching; the pain you gave.

i will try my best to hold this by myself. i will. not even you im going to share.

2010-01-06T08:38:00.003+08:00

a New Year to begin with...

2 Jan'10

slept over at bby house.. orng dah uat mcm umah sendiri. doinks.

3 Jan'10

wash up and went over to bby house again. it was his BOOK-IN day. he wanted to take m.c.. not enuf holiday i guess. but again. he forced himself to go. said our farewell. i dun noe y he listen to me more than his parents. got home after that. and found my husband sleeping while camo-ing himself. doinks. mcm nobody busniess gitu..

4 Jan'10

our first day of the LAST ATTACHMENT.

it will be two weeks at IMH another two weeks at KKH and the last four weeks at CGH.

ouh my. im already missing the bunch of idiots already.

IMH was ok. still adapting to the protocol and schdule.

5 Jan'10

daddykins first warded to SGH. K.I.V cath. due to too narrowed SVC/IVC. DOINKS.

the real thing started. most of the time we observe their behaviour. we staff work together with the patience. so job was usualy done on time. WAIT! way then on time. yes our muker is already masai by the tyme we felt like taking pictures.

in the ARMY bby kept saying

"dorng maner leh ngok kiter senang."

well i think our C.P teacher oso cannot see we senang.

never gonna graduate in peace. :(

so another project due on monday. and my other group member is not on the same shift as me. doinks.

6 Jan'10

working in the afternoon today.. im already sooo lazy. M.C KAPER GENG? nah.... i dun wan to spent my sat working. hehhx.

today also mark our 4 YEAR ANNYVERSARY. unbelievable. it wasnt a nyce journey to begin. but it was worth of everything.

iloveu. muackzie6.

both of us bz with our life now. he is in camp whereas im working in a far far away land.

will be meeting marlina and baya ltr at 11:30. cheeseburger seems to be a must now. doinks.

1 Jan'10
i finally say her! and im soo sad dat we are on a different shift and work
side. im already crying. :(

2010

2010-01-01T18:52:00.006+08:00

"tonyte gonna be a good nyte"

went to siloso with the BOOMZZZ.

bby, dal, farah, yaya & ashraf. the indonesian people are AWESOME. they do PARTY HARD! :) it was more to couple party nyte i must say.

and it took me a few hours to undersatnd what they talk. that was fast.

partying with bby was DAMN SYIOK!

finally ehk pa... dream come true. and im sorry i make u angry. :(

well met alot of people. and make random friends at the toilet. her name was shariffah something.

well dance like hell. and got so tired and fall asleep till afternoon!!! wth. i noe.

baby i swear i love partying with you. eventhough before that we are so scared that we will fight or some shit will happen. but hell yeah. LETS DO IT AGAIN! :)

pictures are random.

something new

2009-12-31T19:42:00.005+08:00

well this is my ~~annoying~~ brother. who ~~never~~ fails to get on me & sis NERVE.

well he got hymself a new hair cut.

and he look different.

this was before.

and this is NOW.

have been bloghopping and ~~EVERY SINGLE ONE~~ is babbling all about wad happen in 2009.

so ofcox, im here to say

my 2009 was AWESOME!

and dats dats.

tonyte we party like there is no tomolo.

a brand new year.

a new begining.

iloveu.

SEE YOU @ SILOSO LAH GENG...

EYYY HAPPY NEW YEAR LAH SIOL!! :)

missing

2009-12-30T00:27:00.003+08:00

yeah you booking out soon!! missing you already...

officially my phone is spoilt. soooooo after fetching bby, going to service my phone.
my hands is just so itchy.

im missing someone too... sorieeee *insert tears* && her name change to chleo out of a sudden.

FINALLY

2009-12-29T15:20:00.002+08:00

well after being held for more than 30 minits i decided to put down...

BUT I STILL IN NEED TO USE THE GAWD DAMN PHONE.

so ofcause i called again. and this thime i waited with billions of patience. and within 22 minits i heard "thank you for calling starhub. how can i assist u?" and this mind just have to replied "like FINALLLLLYYYY." so phone is back... and he text me 7 tymes. WAH SO FREE URH U!! *geramssss*

ouh my.. new is coming... i need plan bebeh. i need PLANSSSS. its GAWD DAMN NEW YEAR FOR ME. *nk buang sway lah ppl.* so im still deciding to where to go.

SILOSO BEACH PARTY COUNTDOWN. bby nk beach party skalie skale??
ZIRCA. THE REBIRTH OF MUSIC.. i nye kaki nk dance2.
COUNTDOWN @ FLOAT.. wouln't it be fun to see our face on live
t.v??

after typing all this down.... mom text me

"ayah ada heart blockage n goin 4 procedure nxt tues."

my gawd........ im in so denial state. and i replied

"yelaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa tuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu"

wtf i noe. tell me bout it.... and ofcox she just have to scare the shit out of me and replied "remember bout ur tooth broken?? kwang kwang kwang"

anw im off to sleep. yesh its only 1617hrs. i noe. im all tireed of waiting.

PUK CODE

2009-12-29T10:14:00.002+08:00

I HAVE BEEN HOLDING FOR MORE THAN 30 MINITS IN TOTAL YOU
BLOODY BASTERD CUSTOMER SERVICE!!!!

and please for godness sake people, HIRE MORE CUSTOMER CONSULTANT!!! since there is alot of JOBLESS people!

and nitizen please!!!! enough of asking for iphone on this line!! i'm freaking hell in need to use the phone!!!

the question

2009-12-27T23:22:00.002+08:00

when you pop the question.

MY OUH MY.

i swear alot of things was going through my mind.

but the most important thing was are you SERIOUS?

i noe u were.

so you already book in. luckie there wont be any more 2 weeks of hell.

new year is coming and im broke.

MOMIE, NK DUIT LEH?? NAK HURAY2. hehhx.

nytes people. iloveu.

AND FUCKING HELL THAT SEZIARI WON!!!! &^@& to him and his supporter!!!

changes

2009-12-26T18:01:00.004+08:00

well, have been bloghopping...

im really shock. i mean... come on.... i haven't meet my secondary school mates for way too long already. the good have gone wild. and the bad have gone good. wtf.

&& im angry with you.

BOOK OUT

2009-12-26T16:35:00.004+08:00

FELT MUCH CLOSER TO HOME...

have been talking and letting my inner soul out with M.I.L..

great relief.

so on 231209 '1900hrs

bby love book out.

well, he looks like he havnt been eating inside there. plus the first thing first he ask from me was "lighter?"

thanks. much appreciated. didnt take alot of pictures. had a small arguement with him...

reached his home wait for his parents to come home with dinner.

WAIT! DID I JUST SAY HOME?!

stop it ehk iqah. muker sardin seii.

anw..........

while waiting again another arguement. den after that the boys played their playstation and i did doze off a lil now and then.

parents in law reached home with dinner and we ate together. and i have to admit. its been quite sometimes since i last ate as a whole family in our dinning table. until i almost blurted out to ibu "why bother having a dinning table when we don't eat as a family."

but i know that was rude.

anwwwwwwwww.............

reached home arnd 12 plus and talk to him till morning. fall asleep. next thing i noe i was getting ready to siap2 to meet him.

i dun nid to stare or imagine... cox i already i got my ARMY MAN.

ouh you so sexy in the uniform. :)

241209

the eve of chirstmas.

some quiet moments with him.

251209

chirstmas

MERRY CHIRSTMAS.

parents off to k.l.

im so missing them already. meet arul after they left.

talk and talk and talk.

then head home at 5am.

wanie ofcox was asleep when i reached home.

she was in a huge arguement with her fiance.

261209

im alone at hume. waiting for arul to fetch me. yet i havnt bathe. but ofcox i had my breakfast and lunch already.

yes i admit. i have become the most laziest person on earth.

its time to start cleaning this house.

maybe... later.....

hehhx.

going to have a warm bath.

weather have been hot and cold in split hours.

no wonder people are falling sick now a days.

anw while having breakfast with wanie, she is already so excited for my wedding. yes.. MY WEDDING. when actualy that will be taken place in 6-7 years. she already plan on what to do. when in actualy fact her wedding is in less than 2 months. doinkx.

thank you for bringing my smile and laughter back bby.

a fresh

2009-12-24T14:56:00.001+08:00

to beging something new, i decided to throw the past. && begin a fresh with you.

so im meeting baby later. overnight with him. while waiting for you i guess i will search for a new blogskin and adjust here and there. =)

love ya...